Stressing the body
I'm making myself post at least once a week.
It's hard to come up with a topic because I either lack an interesting experience or I'm too overwhelmed with experiences to pick just one to write about. (and remember clearly)
I worked only 3 days this week because Ari is suffering big time from a nasty sinus infection and Pharyngitis thanks to the ugly Cedar monster that has enveloped this area of Texas. My friend, Student Nurse Jack has eloquently written a funny post about that.
My paychecks suffer when Ari's sick or when I get cancelled. Cancelled is what we call it when we are overstaffed with nurses and someone gets called at 0430 in the morning to be told to stay home for the day. We take turns and it's been happening to everyone at least twice a month. I'm annoyed by it later but at 0430 I'm always happy to hear I can fall back asleep under the covers all snugly.
I'm stressed out.
Stress does funny things to me. I feel it in my bones and joints. I don't sleep well at all and I get headaches. I get heartburn at night. I have a skin thing called Pompholyx a.k.a. Dyshidrotic Dermatitis on my hands. That flares up pretty bad when I'm stressed. (Yes I realize the dangers of having this at work...especially on my unit....I wash my hands a lot...keep them dry....and cover any of the blisters with Tegaderm when I need to)
Am I stressed right now? I don't know. Mentally I feel fine but all these little body alerts are telling me I am.
So I take benadryl to sleep and for the itchy hands.
Tums for the heartburn, Aleve for the headaches and joint aches. I medicate.
What am I stressed about you ask?
Beats me. I would say every thing's going OK. Sure the job is tough right now but getting easier for me to handle...I'm adapting. And I still love it.
My daughter is healthy and happy.
I have a roof over my head and the rent is paid and the bills are slowly but surely getting paid. I have great friends and people who love me.
Still....Yet..... here I am at 1 am blogging with itchy hands, heartburn, and my hips and ankles are killing me right now.
And I can't really think of anything else to write about.